I had a tortured night. Zeb slept on the couch because he’s still hacking up a lung. This meant I could spread out and enjoy the expansiveness … in my dreams. Naturally the boys saw an opening and I spent the night having tortured dreams of choking to death. Testy had me in a neck lock and I literally could not breathe.
My subconscious cleverly worked that into my dreamscape along with several of my other anxieties: I was at a party and 1) I worried about running out of food 2) I was alternately shirtless or pantsless and people were laughing at me and 3) Tabby made really greasy fritters and insisted that I eat all of them. To know Tabby is to understand the deep irony of this dream.
I woke up pinned between the two boys which is both my idea of heaven and hell. I was feeling claustrophobic because I have a queen sized bed and the three of us were collectively taking up only half of it. Both my arms were pinned down I found myself in a a Double Coyote situation, wherein I’d have to chew off my arms, coyote-stuck-in-a-trap style, to get away without waking them up. Despite my efforts they woke up and that’s why they are on the spin pole at 6:45 in the morning.
I remember when they were babies and I would do anything to not wake them up. These days I care a little less, especially if it is nighttime and I know they will nod back off. I’ll get right in there and mosh on them until they swat me away and roll over. I love kissing them in their sleep. They are so scrumptious sometimes I feel like I could just burst.
Small jelly jars and extra lids. I tried my hand at canning but as much as I enjoy the process, I don’t like the results. Zeb found album at an estate sale that chronicled the life of a Depression era family. The last entry was how every single one of them died eating botulism infected canned beans, except one poor kid who thought they tasted funny. I always think of that when I suspiciously regard the canned peach jam in my cupboard. I’m afraid of it. FREE.
I bought these glass flasks when I was, what, 20? I’m not sure what I had in mind for them, probably some beaded stopper project. FREE.
Metal shoeboxes. FREE.
Wicker baskets with canvas liners. I’d like to get $2 each. Come on, you know you want them!
Fabric ties. I have no idea. FREE.
A pillow sham from the rental. I retired the set. FREE.